Ky and Melo are affectionate children. I am not affectionate person. I didn’t grow up with hugs, kisses, and “I love you“. I made it my business when I had children I would give them that. It has always been uncomfortable to me. I would think by now it shouldn’t bother me. It does. I don’t think it makes me less loving of my children. I really don’t know what it makes me. I love my children and would do anything for them including being uncomfortable. The reason why I write this blog is because I’ve taken Ky to many places, when it was just her and myself. Usually other kids join in to play with her. At the water park, I’m with her every step. Sometimes I sit aside, when there are multiple kids in the area as there were on the splash pad area. As I watch no kids joined her. I literally had a battle with myself to go play with her on the pad. Why??? Idk??? Should I go play or watch??? My back and knee is hurting. My child is alone playing alone. Why are you arguing with yourself, get up and just do it?!?! So no matter how uncomfortable I was I did it. I got up and joined her. I felt so uncomfortable. But I did, I got up, joined my child, and play with her. All she wanted was a water gun fight. She doesn’t like water on her face (she will cry). But for the water fight she was willing to get her face wet and wipe it off. Something she refused to do if we were in the pool. I couldn’t understand and still don’t. But the most important part is she was happy and laughing. She enjoyed spraying me with water (violent you think) and getting spray. It was annoying that’s all she wanted being that I payed to get in this water park. But she was genuinely happy with this part. Even though I was still uncomfortable, I pushed it aside for her happiness. When we got home, I asked her what was her favorite part of our trip to the water park. She said spraying me with water 🤦🏾‍♀️ Her most happiest part is my most uncomfortable part. But I would do it again, welcome to being a mom.